Divorce, Death, Devastation

Divorce

My parents got divorced October 23rd, 2008. Its REALLY taking a tole on me. I know why they did, I'd rather not get into it.

I feel like its my fault, I know it isn't but...It just feels like it is. They really started fighting when we were low on money. Money they needed for my braces my glasses my medical bills. I just feel terrible and I feel like their divorce is my fault. I dont know why, but It really really feels that way...

I'm not quite sure whats going to happen as of right now. I think we're just all gonna live together but they're technically divorced. It really upsets me. But it happens I guess..I just never thought it was going to happen to me.

Death

My grandpa died last night. He fell and had blood in his brain and became brain dead. They took him of life support last night.

He was alone when he died.

Brain dead or not, that would be horrible.

I only met him once, so it isn't so bad, but my mother is devistated, therefor I am too.

I guess thats all I really have to say about that.

Devastation

Where does that leave me? Well, i'm stuck in a family thats falling apart more and more each day. It hurts so much to just wake up in the morning and force myself to be happy at school so no one worries about me. I want so much to just cry and let it all out, but it wont come.

I really feel like just dying in a hole.

I guess thats all for now. Thank you for your time.

~Victoria

I'm So Original

Yup that's right, I'm original. I TOTALLY didn't copy Stefanie (who totally didn't copy her friend).

Well, I'm going to take the time to rant about some stuff I have problems with. Its nice to get it out. Sooo three, two, one BLASTOFF!

1. Immature People

I dont have a problem being silly sometimes you know? Its fun to be like YAY WOOHOO sometimes, but you can only go so far. Being obnoxious is annoying. Being obnoxious AFTER someones told you to stop is EXTREMELY annoying. Alot of Freshman are annoying, because they think they're so cool. Freshman think swearing is SUPER cool too and its not, its annoying and immature.

And its not cute when you act "dumb". Acting like you dont know anything or flailing around being like IM SO COOL BECAUSE I DONT KNOW WHAT IM DOING isn't cool. Its extremely immature, okay? So yeah...stop

2. Purpously Mean People

Alright, people who say mean things are just...mean. Like people who swear at you and call you names and are dead serious about it. Its not nice and it gives people low self esteem, its really annoying too. Like, we're in high school. GROW. UP.

Its rude, and if you get pleasure from being mean to people, see help people. Its not funny, its not cool, I dont care who you are.

3. High Schoolers That Cant Read

Alright this really really REALLY annoys me. If your in HIGHSCHOOL you NEED to know how to read. Like a bunch of people in my english class CANT and its REALLY ANNOYING. You've been doing this for years, why do you froget NOW?

Ugh people. Thats extremely dissapointing. You guys seriously need to get a grip on life...its kind of annoying.

4. Self-Absorbed People

Alight, its really annoying when people talk about themselves constantly. Yeah its nice to hear about the other person, but when that person talks about themselves ALL the time its REALLY ANNOYING!

Like, for example, I have a friend and they LOVE to talk about themselves. Like, all the time. Ill be telling a little story about what happened to me that day and they'll be like "OMG THAT HAPPENED TO ME *insert extremely long story about themselves*" Its really annoying okay? Yeah I want to hear about you, but let me talk about my day too okay? Dont be so self centered.

5. Texting

Kay so...Yeah...I think texting is the stupidest thing ever invented. So, there was ONE think I liked about The Boondocks, and that is, these two guys were talking about texting and one said "Why would you spend two minutes typing something out that you could just call them and tell them in like 5 seconds?" and i was like OMG! Thats EXACTALLY how I see it!!!

Like I hate it when people text during school. Thats against the rules here. Why would you not just wait until class is over and ask them in the hall? Is it THAT much of an emergency that you have to ask them DURING class? Its so dumb. Phones were made for calling not typing. Thats what computer is for stupid.

6. People Who Cant Accept Others Differences

I hate it when people are like "Eww you like that?" Like, I'm extremely girly. I love things that are pink and girly and glittery and yay. I love Barbies, stickers, glitter, frills, all that. I hate people that are like "Eww you like Barbies? Thats so childish, stupid" its like, okay just because something says 5+ dosen't mean older people can't play with it. Thats so dumb, anyone can like whatever they want, its not your choice what people like, so get over it.

7. People Who Purpously Try and Make You Feel Bad

Alright, so this is annoying, and it makes me feel dumb. This really only applies to a few people. Like, you do something they dont want you to do, or vice versa, and they like, try and make you feel bad to get their way. Its really annoying

For example, the other day I was talking to someone and we were saying something about dance and I said "Oh yeah? Well what if I quit? Then you'd be sad! So don't complain" ANd they were like "Oh, so you do it just to make me happy?" Yeah, because YOU are the only one I care about. I waste that much money JUST to make YOU happy. It has NOTHING to do with me. I have an opinon too okay?

8. People That Don't Have Manners

Okay, I understand some things, people burp and all that stuff, its natural, but people go WAY too far. Burping on purpose just to disgust people is GROSS. I do NOT need to hear that okay? Its GROSS. I dont like hwen people play with their food, its gross. Food is for eating okay? Stop touching it and mixing it with stuff to make it look gross. Also, dont put your feet on people okay? Its rude and GROSS. People dont want your SWEATY FEET on them okay?! Its GROSS. DONT. DO IT.



I suppose that it for now...I may write another to add to this, but this is all I feel like writing right now. Thanks for reading

~Victoria

The Log, The Log, Its Heavy Its Heavy its WOOD

....Its better than bad, its good!

Sorry bout that.

Well, I'm not sure what to write, I just decided I needed to write some stuff down.

Its mid-quarter, I guess I'm not doing too bad. Though I could be better [but we all can, so no big deal]. Continuing on the topic of school, Homecomings next week! Though I still have no idea what I'm going to be for Halloween [I suppose that would help] but oh well, Ill figure something out.

Continuing on Homecoming...

I want a date, but there's no way in the world anyone would ask me. I'm not not the kind of person who gets attention from the opposite sex in that way. Lets face it, the only guys I'm "friends" with are hundreds of miles away.

Oh.

There is something else I want to tell people but I'd rather not have to explain a million times, so I'll say it here.

To begin..

Parents are nice in pairs, if ones happy so is the other. But if one falls the other screams, and then the past is just a dream.

[Yeah, I totally just pulled that out of my head.]

To explain, parents are good in pairs. My parents, yes they're a pair but not the closest. My moms actually looked into divorce stuff. She knows it takes 2 years to divorce someone if you dont have a reason. I'm pretty sure she's in love with this guy named Don who lives in Texas. Why do I know that? She knows like everything about him, and carries around a picture of him with her. Yeah.

My dad..I'd just rather stay away from him and not talk to him. Or be near him. *sigh*

So yeah, I don't know if they're actually going through with this. My mom seems really serious about it.

And just so you all know. If they do, my moms moving. And I'm going with. Just a heads up.

Well, I guess that is it for now. Love you all <3

R.I.P.

This golb is dedicated to my great-grandfather, Louis Hatcher.

"I learned that good judgment comes from experience and that experience grows out of mistakes."
- General Omar N. Bradley

My grandfather was in WWII, he was proud. He lost his hearing due to a grenade in a battle. He didnt let that stop him. He worked until the law wouldn't let him.

They'd always joke that once grandpa retired, that was the end.

He stopped working around 12 years ago, I think, and it just went downhill.

He had problems walking, he was deaf, he couldn't eat on his own. But he'd always smile. He was always silly and always made us happy.

In the past year he was transferred to a retirement home, his wife shortly followed.

Last night, September 12, 2008, he passed away. All I can do now is hope that hes looking down from heaven on us.

I love you grandpa.

Rest in peace.

They Kiss [Song]

[Alright, heres that song I wrote. Hope you like it!]

She was walking down the street
Tears were rolling down her cheeks
She looked up at the sky
and said "Why?"
"Why...I?"

She thought that they were perfect
She thought that they would last
She closed her eyes, began to cry
as she, remembered the past...

When they kissed.
They laughed.
His happy face his cheery smile just
Didn't seem to last

When he said no he broke her heart
And he just laughed
Oh why
Oh way back when
When they kissed.

The next day
In that little old school
He bumped her shoulder
She dropped her books

She knelt down to get them
When she heard a voice
She looked up into the eyes
Of a, blue eyed boy

It was something out of writing
Written in a play
He held out his hand and she realized
That at the end of the day

They'd kiss.
They'd laugh.
His happy face his cheery smile
Would always seem to last

She'd say yes, He'd take her heart
They'd both laugh
And then
Oh right then
They'd kiss

Then one day
Many years later
Shes standing at the altar
Looking into the eyes of that blue eyed boy
who was, still happy to see her

They shared their vows
They said I do and he
Smiled down and kissed her

Oh yeah...

They kiss.
They laugh.
His happy face his cheery smile
Would always last

She said I do, He'd always have her heart
They'd always laugh
And now
Right now
They kiss.

Kiss Kiss...FALL IN LOVE BABY

Hello there people. Just wanted to update! I'm writing a song. Yes, me, a songwriter!

I've never really written a song before lol. Yeah, i'm a freak, I Do actually write songs like, in my head though. I've never really just written any down so I'm going to try and start doing that. The song I'm trying to write is called "They Kiss" I got the idea when I was bored in Geometry and I was writing "They Kiss" All over my folder for some reason so I guess it was a sign.

Hm, nothing else really happened today...I got to drive with this old guy and he scares me and apparently I don't drive right so I've got to work on that next time I go driving, which will probably be later today. Stupid turning and stop signs!

Lets see...Yeah, I like driving. I just don't like that it takes the place of my study hall. It kind of sucks, I got most of my work done during study hall but now I only have like 2-3 days of study hall, so I have more homework than usual. But I guess its all good.

Ahhh I want chocolate! Ha. I like chocolate, espically right now... Hm, lets see..

Schools been good, being a sophomore is cool ^^ All my classes aren't too hard so its all good. Homecomings coming up so that should be some fun :]

Well, moms home. Im off! Bye! Thanks for reading!

My Sugar Coated Chocolate Golb

This is my golb. Yes, because I have something against the word "blog" this is now my Golb, and should be treated as such. :3 I got a golb cuz Stefy has a golb so I was like "Hey! Why not?! I'll get a golb!" So here I am! :D

Hmmm I guess I should start with alittle about me, yes. No? Maybe so? Haha anyways yes.

I'm Vicki. Victoria, Tori, Hey you, Cuppycakes, its all good. I'm almost 16 and i'm a sophomore at Johnsburg High School. I currently take Choir and Drivers Ed, next semester i'm taking Choir and Interior Design. :3 Should be fun.

Since I'm taking drivers ed, I got my permit! :O I got it the....28th of August! :3 Yay! I have over 2 hours already driving. Woot woot! Drivings so much fun. THE TURN ONTO MCCULLOM LAKE ROAD IS EVIL!!!!!!

Lets see....what else.... I pretty much love singing :3 I'm in the womens {Treble} Choir at school ^^ Its pretty cool because you gotta audition to get into that one ^^ YAY VICKI!!!! I really like singing, I do alot of stuff in school, including music festivals and stuff outside of school. Its all good ^^

OH I KNOW SOMETHING ELSE ^^ I work at Six Flags Great America in Gurnee, Illinois. Its REALLY fun and REALLY amazing. You see ALOT of weird stuff like that. For example, Joe had this monkey and he took the clothes off of it for some reason and was making it give people hugs. It was SCARY!!! Apperently he was a hobo monkey and couldn't afford clothes D: poor monkey!

Sooo...yeah I'm not quite shure what else to put. ^^ Gimme a second while I eat my poptarts.

Hmmm...I dont really know what else there is ^^ Ummm...I guess I could share some of my views I guess? XD I dont want my golb to be over yet!

Alright then, the one thing that really gets to me is this: Sex before marriage. I'm not saying change your views or anything I just feel REALLY strongly for that. I dont believe you should have to wait for marriage, I believe that if you love someone that its fine. I'm not saying to go stand on a street corner and have all the sex you want, you guys get what i'm saying. Same goes with children, those would be more reasonable I guess to have a child after marriage. It really dosen't matter I guess. I just see that children are little bundles of love, it shouldn't matter when they come. If God says "Hey, you're gonna have a cute little baby now! *pregnancy*" Then you're gonna have a cute little baby!!!

Hmm..I guess thats the only big thing I seem to really press on. I dunno what else there is...

OH! I'm REALLY bad with my knees ^^;;; I'm probably like my mom. My moms like...36 maybe and doctors tell her she has the knees of a 75 year old woman. Yeah, its bad in our family. Its not so bad now that I'm in high school, but during junior high I hurt my knees at least 2 times a year. It was bad, the huge immobolizer things and crutches. THe whole shabang. Ick, thats REALLY not fun. People thought I was faking it because it happened so much. Yeah, thats not fun either..


Well, I suppose that may be enough for right now. Ill try and update this on any big happenings in my life ^^ I love you all! Stay fresh =D Cuz no one likes a stale cookie! lol....